I know I am rushing for a last minute assignment right now and it wouldn't be the best time to blog. But my mind is not at peace after realizing the reality of it. So many years i've tried to change for the better, trying to improve. But now I realize, the more I'm trying to be better from my current state, the more I feel its a wasted effort. I just feel like I end up at point A again and all the time spent was just to convince myself that I'm improving. Am I not trying hard enough? Am I already too comfortable with my life? Well I would agree with the second question, but everything I do has led me no where and leads me back to the current state that I am.
Should I just consider on giving up and let life pass me by as the wind in the meadow.
